Smyrna, Georgia

Yesterday night we arrived in GA. It was about 9p or so at night and we were all tired, I mean even the dog in her first 12+ hour trip. Ellie did very well though, did not whine, cry, get sick, or anything once. I was a little concerned because it had been all day since she had eaten any food but she wouldn't have eaten in the car anyway and besides not like she was being starved or never going to eat again anyway. The frustrating thing is going to three different hotels and finally on the fourth one they take pets when Comfort Inn & Suites was on the list of places that welcome pets on Petswelcome.com. I guess they were wrong and I need to let them know because that was just wrong.
I couldn't believe that entire trip I didn't have one smoke of the pot. I mean it was sitting right there, there was the pipe, the grinder, the whole nine yards and not once did I ask Omar would it bother him if I smoked. I think what bothered me the most was I fell asleep on him a couple of times. I know he wouldn't have mind but it is just the point. I didn't want to be sleep on him while he drove. We did pretty well driving together this being our first trip, our first road trip and not to mention the first trip with the pooch. This time the food was delish, the service good and the company very Excellent!!! After the feeding frenzy we got way on our apartment hunt which was very interesting especially when you need one ASAP or as 008 would say "we needed one yesterday" ,lol. We saw a few complexes and had a meeting of the minds after all the looking which I am thinking tomorrow will be more productive which is strange being tomorrow is Sunday but you never know. We had the chance to look at the apartment book and have at least some sort of plan tomorrow.
My poor baby though lost his wallet. I don't know how the fuck that happened and neither does he. I'm mad at the fact it is gone when he didn't do anything for it to be gone. He didn't leave it anywhere, set it somewhere he shouldn't have, nothing but here it is gone adding to his stress, our stress more. I don't know though, I mean I was easy to just tell the news, try to find the wallet and move on. No need for me to get crazy when you know what, shit happens and we both had it happen to us today. The funny thing is, I guess since we are together, the shit that happens just really doesn't matter because you know what, it happpened, we are able to make a bad situation a better situation and move on. I love him very much, I don't know why I don't tell him but I have never been one with spoken words. I'm a shower, I'm the girl that says actions speak louder than words and I think he knows very well how I feel about him.

An artist journal

Mel bought me a cool artist journal for my x-mas present today. I used one page of it so far. Once I finish typing here I may get into another page but we will see. It is pretty cool. This one came with colored pencils and places for those colored pencils. She picked it up at Starbucks when we went there this morning for her coffee. We were at Big O's so of course he didn't have her kind of coffee. He had mine though which felt good cuz I surely had me a cup this morning babycakes!!
The phone call with my baby was kind of displeasurable today. There was a lot of interference on both ends. I am glad though it was on both ends though because I was really struggling to hear him and wanted him to understand what I was hearing. I'm not sure how long we talked but I was willing to struggle through the interference just a little bit longer to talk to him. I miss him deeply. I believe I can handle another one of these times though a little bit better but I will still miss him deeply. Big O doesn't believe the ferocious misses him but she truely does as well. I can tell that when we go over there. But she is happy in the fact that we have been there and has some sense he'll be coming back.
I am overjoyed he received his passport with his new 5yr Visa. He received it a day early so that feels good in itself and too he will be arriving Friday (hopefully with fingers crossed) instead of Sunday so that is another positive to all of this as well.

At the his apartment

What can I say, I just fucking miss my Honey!!! I miss him I miss him I miss him. I am going crazy and emotional over here. I hate talking to Mel about it sometimes because she is going through some things right now and I know she kind of doesn't want to hear about it but she hears my doubts and fears too so it isn't like I'm all peaches and cream over here either. My damn man is half way across the damn world, I may not hear from him for a few days because his ass will be in turnio/milano, italy until the damn 4th, arggggggggggggggggghhhhhhh!!!!
Last night I went over to his place to inhale his esscence, sleep in the bed, watch a movie, chill with the dog, you know. It was funny, I was so mad at myself because there wasn't a thing there that smelled like him because I had washed everything and cleaned up pretty much; I walked into the closet still looking for something he hung back up just because he wore it once. I was coming up empty handed and then I just sighed real big and realized the entire closet smelled like him, I didn't have to find one thing he had worn because the whole closet had his scent. I fell asleep to Casino Royale and woke up about the times I usually do there, once real early for no reason and then again when he would be getting up to turn on the espresso machine. Ellie was all kinds of stretched out in the bed. I think the first night she didn't realize what was going on because once again she went looking for him but she fell asleep on her favorite pillows until I moved her, of course going to bed she had to bring a chew with her.
I want to dye my hair today. Some cool color or hell just either jet black or very freaking blonde. Omar said though he isn't that much into blondes so dying it blonde may not be the best way to go but gosh I want to dye it some drastic color. You may not think jet black is but when your hair really isn't jet black it is drastic.
I don't know I'm just trying to be me and make Big O happy at the same time but then again he is very happy when I do just that, be me, myself, & I. This shit is hard just being myself and knowing it makes someone smile on a regular basis. That shit is tripping me out and I guess the thing is the ex has fucked me up. I am slowly but surely getting over it with his help and it is working. He sees it I guess or he is just being him which is perfectly fine with me.
He just called me while he is outside smoking waiting on Club Italy to pick him up I guess. I say I guess because Big O told me he has already told Club Italy that I am going with him to South Carolina. He said CI had no reaction, he just said umph. Big O thinks CI is still trying to process it, I threw out there maybe he already knew but Big O wanted him to respond some kind of way not just silence. Hey maybe Big O stepped outside to smoke and talk to me real quick but unusual that CI wouldn't go with him. Oh wait, he said he just landed or something. Oh hell I don't know, let me stop trying to figure it out because does it really matter? Club Italy knows, Big O told him, the world is right. In a couple of days it will be the 4th and from there only 7-9days and he'll be back.