Agent Double "O" 8; License to Cook

My Italian Stallion is on his way home and if not right at this moment he is the closest has he been all damn day when he has been on an airplane and waiting in airports most of it. I know I miss him. I don't miss him in an I'm going to cry and not make it sort of way but I don't know it is kind of like a calm. I'm not worried about him being back home now as much as I was before. I'm more stressed out about the moving situation than I am anything else because he is right in what he said today; he'll be back before I really start to miss him but I mean come on three weeks is a long time when it is new & fresh. I don't know what it is, the see you later kiss and the hug made me confident. The way he treated me today, hell this entire week has made me feel special. I couldn't imagine not seeing him a week before he leaves to go back home for three weeks. Even though he has been stressed with work, going back home for the holidays, moving when he returns every night before now has been really enjoyable; even the ones where we both would fall asleep on each other. We both have been sleeping horrible the nights before he left. Hell I ended up with a headache the day before he was due to leave but the nap we had was the best nap ever. Ok maybe not the best nap ever but it was a really wonderlicious nap. He was sleep, the dog was sleep, I was sleep in the bed; all of us so tired we feel asleep with the light on and slept a good two and a half hours if not three to three and a half hours. I couldn't believe it. We have only fallen asleep like that once I think but not 100% on that. I think it is the cutest little thing though that when we go lay down Ellie is right behind us jumping in the bed. Lately she curls up inbetween us. It is funny that when one of us starts moving too much she gets up and moves to either the couch, her couch or his yellow pillow. Today I'm glad he finally understood that she enjoys his smell and whatever he has worn she is going to curl up in. She will follow it across the room, into another room to curl up in it and go to sleep. They love each other, I don't care how much they try to deny it when I am in the room, it is just too funny and cute. I can't believe he bought her a $75 couch, two $20 sweaters, & a bigger water dish. I mean I can believe it but I can't. I mean he is right, he is spoiling the girlfriend and her dog, lol. I think he spoils the dog not only because she is mine but he loves her too. He enjoys playing with her way to much to deny anything else. He is right though she does need a bigger feeding dish but I do digress. I told my sisters I am moving to South Carolina and mentioned to my mom my new boyfriend is Italian that is why my shirt is in Italian.
I guess it just bothers me that he took his laptop and all that jazz but I mean it is understandable he is going home. I don't know but last night and today at the airport kind of washed my insecurities away, that and besides the fact he has been saying all week he is going to miss me. I had to ask him last night, kind of letting him know I was scared, there's not some pregnant chick back in Italy, some girl he is going to marry and be with besides me, etc, etc, blah & blah but you know you never know, a girl has to and had to ask. I mean yeah it would be silly especially since he asked me to move with him to South Carolina and from there who knows where else but hell men/people do some of the craziest silliest shit. I want to tell him I love him so bad but it feels like such an understood known between the two of us it would seem silly to say. It seems like a strange feeling but it seemed like after I hugged him, kissed him, & heading down on the escalator something felt like he said I love you. I looked up and at him; he had this look in his eyes. I wanted to run back the opposite directions up the escalator to hug & kiss him again but I didn't want to seem silly or cheesy. He knows I miss and I'll miss him.
I can't believe he is willing to allow me to move with him and just pretty much just exsist if I wanted to. I don't know if I can handle something like that but we might just have to see. I don't know though, I will have to get some kind of part time job I mean come on, I have to get out and meet people some how. I may just get on meetup.com and see if there are dog parks around, an artist/painters group or something too. Hopefully facebook will help me a wee bit with networking a tad bit too. I might just have to find something easy breezy to do and just chill on that while living with him. I mean with the way he wants to travel and carrying on it seems that is pretty much what I am going to have to do.
I'm excited, in love and ready to move and have some fun with my man. Hopefully he won't come back with something else to tell me like nevermind or lets wait. I think that is what is terrifying me the most is that something will happen and his mind will change. I'm just scared. That is all there is to it.

We have so much freaking fun together it isn't even funny. I can't believe who concerned he actually gets when I'm not smiling. When I'm usually looking as if something is wrong he says it worries him because I'm not smiling and laughing like I usually am. He is willing to talk to me in the dark before bedtime. I think that is what I enjoy the most as well. He isn't afraid of pillow talk and allows me to get my feelings out and everything without coming down on me about doing it that way. He also takes that time with me and talks to me not just listening and "uh huh'ng" what I have to say.
We came up with an aka for jenfer and I to call him and that is either "the big O" or "agent 008, license to cook", ok actually 008. It is too cute. It had me smiling all day. He keeps me smiling a lot. Even in a disagreement or a misunderstanding I ended up smiling, actually we both do but he is usually the one making me smile.