It was 3:25pm this time

I missed him a little sooner than usual plus I wanted to call him this time instead of it seeming as if he has to call me all the time. I was doing that, letting him call mostly because he is the one on vacation and want him to call me when he gets some time to himself instead of me bothering him. He made the comment about how he has called me everyday and even on his flight, even in Philly but apologized for not calling often enough. I laughed, chuckled actually because to be honest, they way he said things had made it where I thought I would only be talking to him a couple if not only a few times a week not everyday which I am not complaining at all about talking to him everyday it just feels weird sometimes to talk to him everyday. The man is in Italy, it isn't like he went to Canada or somewhere in the U.S. for 3weeks but I do believe if he went anywhere in the U.S. for 3weeks I would have been there by now, lol.
He was getting ready to go out drinking and such again tonight, he was leaving in half an hour, no biggie, we did talk a good bit today though.
He did tell me he hopes he hears from the Consulate tomorrow because they have yet to call him with an appointment for his Visa and he can't come back here without it. He can come back but he can only come on a visiting Visa. He said they already have his documents so just waiting on them but he has to go to Rome which is across the country not down the street. He said he hopes though they are kind of late with the appointment so he can change his flight coming home because one layover/stop/whatever is only 55mins and if he is late one only knows what will happen. Hopefully he gets his appointment soon because I don't want him missing my birthday. I couldn't be with him on the holidays at least I can have him on my birthday. Besides I think 4 weeks would really drive me crazy. I can't believe they haven't called him with an appointment yet but then again I almost can. I won't be talking to him tonight because he said he has no more money on the card and will have to get one tomorrow, so I guess I won't know anything unless he sends me a myspace message or when I talk to him on the phone tomorrow. I won't bring it up, I'll just wait and see if he brings it up again. I don't want to seem anxious, bothersome, or anything like that. I'm just scared, nervous, excited, etc.

Just Chiefin' on a Saturday evenin

JP's
JP Awards
Golden Roach Clips
Donuts on his tummy (On Homer's tummy on The Simpsons Movie)

I'm high
I've had wine
I've been to his apartment, cleaned it, colored on the calendar a bit, picked up some of my things, done some laundry, washed the sheets, made the bed, & I'm done being over there a bit because right now I'm just a tad bit disappointed with him. Not a lot but a good fucking bit.
I'm just not really fucking feeling it at the moment.
Good night

"Toke, toke it up man"

9:25pm @ night Dec.22nd
"Up in Smoke"
@ home w/pooch, new pillow,
Terrence
Melissa
Myself

Agent Double "O" 8; License to Cook

My Italian Stallion is on his way home and if not right at this moment he is the closest has he been all damn day when he has been on an airplane and waiting in airports most of it. I know I miss him. I don't miss him in an I'm going to cry and not make it sort of way but I don't know it is kind of like a calm. I'm not worried about him being back home now as much as I was before. I'm more stressed out about the moving situation than I am anything else because he is right in what he said today; he'll be back before I really start to miss him but I mean come on three weeks is a long time when it is new & fresh. I don't know what it is, the see you later kiss and the hug made me confident. The way he treated me today, hell this entire week has made me feel special. I couldn't imagine not seeing him a week before he leaves to go back home for three weeks. Even though he has been stressed with work, going back home for the holidays, moving when he returns every night before now has been really enjoyable; even the ones where we both would fall asleep on each other. We both have been sleeping horrible the nights before he left. Hell I ended up with a headache the day before he was due to leave but the nap we had was the best nap ever. Ok maybe not the best nap ever but it was a really wonderlicious nap. He was sleep, the dog was sleep, I was sleep in the bed; all of us so tired we feel asleep with the light on and slept a good two and a half hours if not three to three and a half hours. I couldn't believe it. We have only fallen asleep like that once I think but not 100% on that. I think it is the cutest little thing though that when we go lay down Ellie is right behind us jumping in the bed. Lately she curls up inbetween us. It is funny that when one of us starts moving too much she gets up and moves to either the couch, her couch or his yellow pillow. Today I'm glad he finally understood that she enjoys his smell and whatever he has worn she is going to curl up in. She will follow it across the room, into another room to curl up in it and go to sleep. They love each other, I don't care how much they try to deny it when I am in the room, it is just too funny and cute. I can't believe he bought her a $75 couch, two $20 sweaters, & a bigger water dish. I mean I can believe it but I can't. I mean he is right, he is spoiling the girlfriend and her dog, lol. I think he spoils the dog not only because she is mine but he loves her too. He enjoys playing with her way to much to deny anything else. He is right though she does need a bigger feeding dish but I do digress. I told my sisters I am moving to South Carolina and mentioned to my mom my new boyfriend is Italian that is why my shirt is in Italian.
I guess it just bothers me that he took his laptop and all that jazz but I mean it is understandable he is going home. I don't know but last night and today at the airport kind of washed my insecurities away, that and besides the fact he has been saying all week he is going to miss me. I had to ask him last night, kind of letting him know I was scared, there's not some pregnant chick back in Italy, some girl he is going to marry and be with besides me, etc, etc, blah & blah but you know you never know, a girl has to and had to ask. I mean yeah it would be silly especially since he asked me to move with him to South Carolina and from there who knows where else but hell men/people do some of the craziest silliest shit. I want to tell him I love him so bad but it feels like such an understood known between the two of us it would seem silly to say. It seems like a strange feeling but it seemed like after I hugged him, kissed him, & heading down on the escalator something felt like he said I love you. I looked up and at him; he had this look in his eyes. I wanted to run back the opposite directions up the escalator to hug & kiss him again but I didn't want to seem silly or cheesy. He knows I miss and I'll miss him.
I can't believe he is willing to allow me to move with him and just pretty much just exsist if I wanted to. I don't know if I can handle something like that but we might just have to see. I don't know though, I will have to get some kind of part time job I mean come on, I have to get out and meet people some how. I may just get on meetup.com and see if there are dog parks around, an artist/painters group or something too. Hopefully facebook will help me a wee bit with networking a tad bit too. I might just have to find something easy breezy to do and just chill on that while living with him. I mean with the way he wants to travel and carrying on it seems that is pretty much what I am going to have to do.
I'm excited, in love and ready to move and have some fun with my man. Hopefully he won't come back with something else to tell me like nevermind or lets wait. I think that is what is terrifying me the most is that something will happen and his mind will change. I'm just scared. That is all there is to it.

We have so much freaking fun together it isn't even funny. I can't believe who concerned he actually gets when I'm not smiling. When I'm usually looking as if something is wrong he says it worries him because I'm not smiling and laughing like I usually am. He is willing to talk to me in the dark before bedtime. I think that is what I enjoy the most as well. He isn't afraid of pillow talk and allows me to get my feelings out and everything without coming down on me about doing it that way. He also takes that time with me and talks to me not just listening and "uh huh'ng" what I have to say.
We came up with an aka for jenfer and I to call him and that is either "the big O" or "agent 008, license to cook", ok actually 008. It is too cute. It had me smiling all day. He keeps me smiling a lot. Even in a disagreement or a misunderstanding I ended up smiling, actually we both do but he is usually the one making me smile.

Options, Choices, Decisions, Explorations

Looks like I have a decision to make but I have already made it, I just haven't told the other person it involves. I was given the option to move to South Carolina with my boyfriend. That means my cats, the dog and I just pack up and move leaving TX for a little while if not forever altogether. Now when I say forever does not mean I wouldn't dare come back to visit because of course I would being my friend and family are here.
It is going to one interesting move. I mean we haven't been dating that long but it is so comfortable already. He is my friend. I mean we can sit around doing our own thing and no one feeling neglected. I enjoy the fact he can be just as spontaneious as I am so this move should be a fun one if nothing more but of course there will be more. We keep growing everyday as the days go by and it is just interesting in the way that it is happening. AGGGGGGGGGGGHHH!!! Moving to South Carolina though, I mean come on. I don't know if we will be there that long and yes it will be interesting to live in and see another state but gosh, it is going to be slow and easy I'm sure. I'm all ready to be bored a little bit. We will keep each other entertained because we seem to do that a lot now anyway which is fun by the way.
GAWD!!! He is out right now with his friends. I'm suppose to be in San Antonio or I would be out with him I think. I am not betting the farm on it though. His aquaintence has two friends in town, male and female and it is just driving my nerves crazy that he is in Dallas with them and I'm at home looking crazy but I guess soon we'll have almost no choice but to be together unless we go out alone, lol. I don't know why I get so nervous when he is out. He has not given me a reason not to trust him and he is more than willing go out with me and have me on his arm. I just get all crazy and crap when he is around other chicks, like he is doing or going to do something he shouldn't. It is me he spoils and shows a good time. I am the one he gave the option to move to South Carolina with him. I just trip and feel uneasy for no reason I guess. Hell he has to trust me just as much as I have to trust him. I mean because I go all kinds of strange places with my best friend.
Tomorrow I'm heading to San Antonio for my best friend's cousin's funeral. I think she has grieved already, she is feeling wierd about it which she shouldn't but I think she is. It will be an interesting trip that is for sure. Her ex husband is rolling with us and thank goodness because we need to be in the clouds on the road. I may have to bring incense to cover pot smell in my car because it seems my car likes to hold that damn smell. I will have to write later, I'm feeling a nap of some sort coming on. I just finished painting my toes with my fingernails next in line.