Day after Halloween

Here it is the day after Halloween and I haven't seen him yet. I haven't seen him since I think Tuesday morning. We are suppose to have a long weekend together or so the text says which I will believe and I will certainly enjoy. I can't believe he left his phone yet again but then again I can because when he got in from the club he got high. High late at night with him usually means he left his damn phone at home. Of course this time I didn't get mad because now I know and realized when he didn't message by 12:33pm what was up. It was a cute message he sent when he got home. It made me smile which he usually does. He called me also today. Something about hearing that voice makes me smile as well. Just so many things about this make me nervous. He claims something about me getting an italian flag tattooed on me. I said if you pay for it I will do it. Why did I say that I do not know because guess what, I may be getting antoher tattoo on me. I am just so all over the place with my thoughts and this thing here called a blog. So many things to write about one person. One person making so many times in my life happy ones. I don't want to label what we have but it is different to be in something I didn't have to label. It feels like something is almost understood without the specific words. I really wish he didn't have to leave when he leaves. It is a sad sucky thing, very sad and sucky but I guess it has to happen since here is not where home is. Where he is from is a very beautiful place. I wouldn't mind seeing it in person at all.

This day has been a very high day. Sleep was good this morning. I woke up before the best friend, I was afraid she wasn't going to make it to work but she did. She ended up coming home half a day and getting her prescriptions because her tooth was killing her once again but at least this time there is pain meds around and she can get done what she needs to get done, YAY!!! Then once the teeth are gone I'm sure those headaches will slow down a whole hell of a lot. Mine have slowed down a ton and I think it is because now I am happy and away from a job that wasn't using my full potential. I know I haven't been getting up much on my resume but that is about to damn sure change and who knows hopefully I can work at a Starbucks for some extra change while I'm on severance from the bank.