It has been some time since I have last posted here. A lot has been going on. I've been dating a few people here and there. Letting them spoil me, take me out on dates, do what the hell I want to do for a change instead of just sitting at home watching the boob tube. Now if we get together and just chill on the couch that is one thing but they are more than willing to get up and do something if requested.
I met this real cool cat named Joe w/three kids, recently separated like myself. He is really cool and comfy to be around. We popped X together the first night I saw/met him in person. It was only half, he did the other half. That night/morning was a trip. I can't believe we left each other like 630ish in the morning from hanging out about 630/7ish the previous evening. He ended up meeting Mally of course he met Mel since he did come over to the house. We haven't seen each other since that day which I am kind of bummed about but I am glad we did get to spend that time together. He has since moved to OKC with his kids due to "baby mama drama" he says which I do believe. The last time we talked we couldn't really talk because he was trying to put/get a handle on that. Quit his job, got the kids and moved to OKC with the sister. All I can say is good for him and hope he can get his shit together from all of this because it has got to be hard when someone is tripping like this and kids are involved not just you two as a couple. He called me Thursday and we chatted for a good while. I called him Sunday which he was suppose to call me back but didn't hear a word. I'll be alright of course but I see now, he is going to be that guy you talk to at least once every two weeks if that much. I understand a lot is going on for him right now but I still just get that vibe.
Ryan aka MrSheets is a total and complete trip. I didn't think he was going to be all that cute from his Myspace page but when he showed up I was completely surprised. We chilled for a good bit and then I must admit I was ravished and I didn't mind it, I especially didn't mind it when he knew what a cockring was and wore it or when he had a big cock for a 22yr old and knew how to work it a little. I must admit he does need a few more leasons on working it but he proved to be a good learner the next time we saw each other. I hate to say though, that 2nd time I guess was our last time. Either I teased him in a way he took offense to or something. I thought we left each other on good terms, a little bite on the neck, a quick kiss, hug and thoughts of seeing each other again later or so I thought but I guess he had other plans and I wasn't in them. He at least could have said that instead of just not answering my text. I didn't text him all the time, maybe once or twice a week but no answer either way. The last text I received from him was about him being at the bar, I texted him to be careful and he said he would be alright. Who would have known I wasn't going to talk to him after that. I guess I am just baffled as in to why. I mean hell he wasn't just a booty call. He came over gave me some but we did some hanging out and checking out stuff. I thought we were learning each other but POOF! he vanished into thin air. A little like Joe but Joe had good reason, this one is just not mature enough to say oops I don't want to hang anymore. I guess maybe I said something wrong but I didn't think so. Did I do something wrong, hell if anything I was a muthafuckin champ because I dealt with your ED both times we had sex. Actually told you it doesn't bother me I understand but hey what ever the hell floats your boat. Maybe he just scared, scared he couldn't handle what I have. Then again maybe it is just a sign I don't need to be with him at all since he does do a lot of drinking(which is one of the reasons I did leave the husband for) and he is still into the drug scene a bit. I mean how all of the sudden someone mentions cocaine or something then you hit up a homeboy for a few lines? I mean come on now. I'm not into all that so ooops oh well, a good sign to move on.
Now this Omar fellow and this Reese guy seem to be pretty good guys but I'm leaning more towards Omar. I don't know what it is but I'm not my usual comfy self around Reese. I don't know what it is. I know one reason could be that Omar smokes and Reese doesn't but I would like to think it doesn't make that big of a difference but it looks as if I am wrong. Also I feel I just can't be myself. I'm a chatty person and sometimes I feel that isn't where he wants to be. I guess if Reese were to stop talking to me tomorrow I wouldn't pass out or try to jump off the flat part of the earth. I guess he is just really cool people to hang out with on one hand but on the other that is all he is good for is going out because when we are together it is about sex pretty much and not just to have a good time hanging out and whatever happens happens. Omar and I usually know sex is going to go down but we have way too much fun before hand. The eating, the drinking and now the smoking, I find myself missing him when I should be dating other folks when I'm not spending my time with him. He does leave me in Dec for an unknown amount of time. I of course can handle it now that I know but I don't want to handle it, lol.
I have met a few more folks. I have a date or a meeting this Thursday with someone new but he doesn't live in town and a pizza date with Omar on Wednesday. Looks like my tonight and my tomorrow are open but we shall see. This guy named Jack wants to meet me but I'm not that sure about him because he doesn't do anything, well he drinks a little but doesn't smoke which I do and I hardly drink if at all unless I am out. We'll see if he can get in where he fits in. I'll at least give the guy a chance. He can either make it or break it all by himself.
That is all that has been going on here except I went to GrapeFest this year but this time I went with Omar. We had some fun. I mean it wasn't a blast but I don't think I have ever had a blast except for one year and believe it or not I went with my husband that time. I don't know Omar still makes me a little nervous and I don't know why. I do however find myself being myself around him. Maybe that is why I am so nervous, I'm not use to being my full self, lol.
I'm outta here folks, have a good time doing whatever it is you which better be being you!!!
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