What's going on!!

This past weekend was fun and interesting to say the least. We went to the jazz festival and had a really good almost free time. At least it was free to get in and park because the balloon festival wanted too much to watch some damn balloons take off and such. The last act at the jazz fest was great and even the side stages had some good talent on them. The funnel cake we could have left because they were frying them too long, yuck but we ate it and the lemonade was yummy all freshly squeezed and carrying on with no extra sugar. We had a good time there. Melissa finally met Cherie and made a proper assumption after it was all said and done. We probably won't be seeing her for another few months. Melissa is right but then again I told her we might see her before that if she notices we are having too much fun without her.
Come to think of it Mel is right, we do need to take some more pictures for myspace but we haven't had the chance or been anywhere in which we are going together and getting cute together or even before a date. I guess we'll have to think of something this week or next at least.
Met someone new last night, I think I'll let him make it a little bit. He is 47 which is too close to Steven's age for me but I guess I'll make it. He is a cutie/hottie. We'll see how he is in bed before I make the decision to keep him as a total friend or let him be FWB of course. I saw him last night but was just not feeling sexy and didn't want to remove any clothes at all. I don't know, I thought he wasn't going to like me and I thought he didn't want to see me naked but that wasn't the case.

I made it home and he sent me a nice little message saying next time I'm getting naked and I'm going to like it, lol. I did tell him I was too high which I was and he understood. I almost fell asleep on him. I would have been out too like a light and not sure if he would have been able to wake me. I so wanted to be with Omar in that state. I would have fallen asleep on him again though. Speaking of which. I had a blast with him this past Saturday. Our date this time was us cooking together and watching a movie. Of course the movie really never got watched well at least too much and this time I fell asleep, lol. The food was good, the company was good. I don't know, what can I say. I cooked and ate octopus for the first time as well as cooking clams and eating them other than fried. It was a wild and good experience. Had a couple shots of rum w/pear juice chaser, that was delish. We didn't smoke as much as I am use to which is good because I would have been sleep way before we finished fooling around. I was just so tired that evening. I guess the shopping, cooking, eating, drinking, all that took it's toll on me. Which I didn't mind. I can't believe it though when I got home and was up. I guess that cat nap kind of ruined me too in a sense. At least it gave Ellie a minute to be out of the kennel and run around before she had to be put back in it. I got to see Californication for a little bit and it was pretty interesting. Don't know if I want to start recording it or anything serious like that, lol, but it was interesting. I am suppose to see Reese sometime this week but I really don't want to. He seems too wound up and then wants to do stuff like bondage, hot wax, cbt, etc. I don't know if I am feeling him like that at all. He seems so closeted and stiff I don't know if he is for me. I mean not really stiff but I guess not for me, especially sexually. He was good that first time we had intercourse but since then I just haven't been feeling him. Not really my type I'm guessing. He needs to pick up on that vibe and QUICK!!! I've been trying to hook up with this couple but not having any luck. I hooked up with the boyfriend half of the couple but haven't had any luck since and he bragged about me to the gf so I'm like all confused now. I ask to hook up but not getting any responses is kind of driving me crazy. I think I'm just going to have to let them make it and just say forget it. Who knows though, I just sent a text and he said still interested maybe Thurs or Fri. I said cool just don't forget about me, sheesh. I bet they'll forget or something. I'll hit them up Wednesday so they don't or at least Thursday sometime. This is crazy, I might just have to go back on my couple hunt and let this have its moment.


I don't think I have a date tonight, heck to be honest I don't want a date tonight or at least if I have anything I want some real good sex tonight which I haven't had in a minute. I mean some really good sex. I haven't had that in a while and I want with someone that is fun to be with. This guy wants to see me after work at my place but he isn't as fun as he thinks he is. He is good enough for a backseat fuck but not sure if I want him at my house on my bed leaving his essence on my sheets. I don't know we'll see how the day rolls. I might hit up craigslist and see what is out there for this evening. Heck I may post something myself and see if I get any decent hits on the damn thing. Kind of don't want to because I'm sure the husband is out there searching on it but who knows he may be searching for bi guys instead of women but I just really couldn't tell ya. To be honest the only reason I would care is so I could put my post out there and not be bothered with him or him seeing it. Also I guess I don't want anyone I'm "dating" to see it either. Hmmm let me change that up. I don't want O to see it even though I don't think he goes there. The others I don't care about just yet because no one besides O and R have taken me out. The others could just kiss my ass but then again I haven't found any one else worthy or worth taking me out. Who knows maybe I'm in a rut at the moment, lol.

It has been so long

It has been some time since I have last posted here. A lot has been going on. I've been dating a few people here and there. Letting them spoil me, take me out on dates, do what the hell I want to do for a change instead of just sitting at home watching the boob tube. Now if we get together and just chill on the couch that is one thing but they are more than willing to get up and do something if requested.

I met this real cool cat named Joe w/three kids, recently separated like myself. He is really cool and comfy to be around. We popped X together the first night I saw/met him in person. It was only half, he did the other half. That night/morning was a trip. I can't believe we left each other like 630ish in the morning from hanging out about 630/7ish the previous evening. He ended up meeting Mally of course he met Mel since he did come over to the house. We haven't seen each other since that day which I am kind of bummed about but I am glad we did get to spend that time together. He has since moved to OKC with his kids due to "baby mama drama" he says which I do believe. The last time we talked we couldn't really talk because he was trying to put/get a handle on that. Quit his job, got the kids and moved to OKC with the sister. All I can say is good for him and hope he can get his shit together from all of this because it has got to be hard when someone is tripping like this and kids are involved not just you two as a couple. He called me Thursday and we chatted for a good while. I called him Sunday which he was suppose to call me back but didn't hear a word. I'll be alright of course but I see now, he is going to be that guy you talk to at least once every two weeks if that much. I understand a lot is going on for him right now but I still just get that vibe.

Ryan aka MrSheets is a total and complete trip. I didn't think he was going to be all that cute from his Myspace page but when he showed up I was completely surprised. We chilled for a good bit and then I must admit I was ravished and I didn't mind it, I especially didn't mind it when he knew what a cockring was and wore it or when he had a big cock for a 22yr old and knew how to work it a little. I must admit he does need a few more leasons on working it but he proved to be a good learner the next time we saw each other. I hate to say though, that 2nd time I guess was our last time. Either I teased him in a way he took offense to or something. I thought we left each other on good terms, a little bite on the neck, a quick kiss, hug and thoughts of seeing each other again later or so I thought but I guess he had other plans and I wasn't in them. He at least could have said that instead of just not answering my text. I didn't text him all the time, maybe once or twice a week but no answer either way. The last text I received from him was about him being at the bar, I texted him to be careful and he said he would be alright. Who would have known I wasn't going to talk to him after that. I guess I am just baffled as in to why. I mean hell he wasn't just a booty call. He came over gave me some but we did some hanging out and checking out stuff. I thought we were learning each other but POOF! he vanished into thin air. A little like Joe but Joe had good reason, this one is just not mature enough to say oops I don't want to hang anymore. I guess maybe I said something wrong but I didn't think so. Did I do something wrong, hell if anything I was a muthafuckin champ because I dealt with your ED both times we had sex. Actually told you it doesn't bother me I understand but hey what ever the hell floats your boat. Maybe he just scared, scared he couldn't handle what I have. Then again maybe it is just a sign I don't need to be with him at all since he does do a lot of drinking(which is one of the reasons I did leave the husband for) and he is still into the drug scene a bit. I mean how all of the sudden someone mentions cocaine or something then you hit up a homeboy for a few lines? I mean come on now. I'm not into all that so ooops oh well, a good sign to move on.



Now this Omar fellow and this Reese guy seem to be pretty good guys but I'm leaning more towards Omar. I don't know what it is but I'm not my usual comfy self around Reese. I don't know what it is. I know one reason could be that Omar smokes and Reese doesn't but I would like to think it doesn't make that big of a difference but it looks as if I am wrong. Also I feel I just can't be myself. I'm a chatty person and sometimes I feel that isn't where he wants to be. I guess if Reese were to stop talking to me tomorrow I wouldn't pass out or try to jump off the flat part of the earth. I guess he is just really cool people to hang out with on one hand but on the other that is all he is good for is going out because when we are together it is about sex pretty much and not just to have a good time hanging out and whatever happens happens. Omar and I usually know sex is going to go down but we have way too much fun before hand. The eating, the drinking and now the smoking, I find myself missing him when I should be dating other folks when I'm not spending my time with him. He does leave me in Dec for an unknown amount of time. I of course can handle it now that I know but I don't want to handle it, lol.

I have met a few more folks. I have a date or a meeting this Thursday with someone new but he doesn't live in town and a pizza date with Omar on Wednesday. Looks like my tonight and my tomorrow are open but we shall see. This guy named Jack wants to meet me but I'm not that sure about him because he doesn't do anything, well he drinks a little but doesn't smoke which I do and I hardly drink if at all unless I am out. We'll see if he can get in where he fits in. I'll at least give the guy a chance. He can either make it or break it all by himself.

That is all that has been going on here except I went to GrapeFest this year but this time I went with Omar. We had some fun. I mean it wasn't a blast but I don't think I have ever had a blast except for one year and believe it or not I went with my husband that time. I don't know Omar still makes me a little nervous and I don't know why. I do however find myself being myself around him. Maybe that is why I am so nervous, I'm not use to being my full self, lol.

I'm outta here folks, have a good time doing whatever it is you which better be being you!!!

Drinkin in the mornin