Why do I like him so much? I shouldn't like him this much. I just met the fool and he is all I can think about. He sent one message via MySpace, I sent a reply, he sent another message with a phone number and I responded with mine. He called me first, all out of the blue. It shocked my stuff and for a minute I thought he was someone else. Finally I figured out who he was and all we could do was talk. That was on a Monday. Next thing you know he is chilling at my house with Mally, Mel and myself on Friday evening. 420 friendly he is, brought a bud of dro which I didn't expect for Mally to bumrush him with her stuff like she did but it was cool. He was just amazed because he came over to smoke some with us, you know bringing it to share and here we are sharing ours with him which was very cool that we could ALL chill, no one feel uneasy. After a while he left, went to Autozone or so he says. Nothing I can do but believe him. He left my place I would have to say around 8:30p. Our intentions were not to see each other until tomorrow (Saturday). Next thing I know is, he is back at my place after a few text messages and he didn't leave until around 6am Saturday morning. I was a little sad we didn't get to go out but that is cool. He went to get his hair cut or so he says but claims the hair person is his homey so who knows what went on but I'm not suppose to like him this much. I wasn't suppose to trust him enough to share an XTC pill with him. I wasn't suppose to enjoy spending that much time with him and Ellie sho wasn't suppose to be all chihuahua friendly about the situation either. I wasn't suppose to want to go out with him on Saturday after seeing him all that time but we didn't.
Then he surprises me Sunday by calling and texting me. Oh I can't handle it. Im not use to someone having a life. I'm not use to someone not answering when I call or calling right back or hitting me up immediately when I send a text. I'm just so not use to him having a life or anyone else besides me for that matter. He is separated from his wife and has been for 2months he claims. He said the breaking up was her idea. They have 3 small children together, 1 girl that is 5 or almost 5 and twin boys. We've already established the fact since they have been broke up that they have had sex together since then. He claims because it is routine and kind of habit which hey he's not my bf, not my man who am I to complain when he isn't the only one I'm giving it up to. He claims she has a bf or a guy she is seeing now. Hey we'll see. I've visited her myspace page. Of course I had to see the competition and she is cute but of course I gotta try to be more cute, lol. From what it seems he is telling the truth they are separated. I'm not reading too much into this. I just can't stand I like him this much and so fast. I guess what is killing me is because I don't know what he is thinking, how he feels about me. All I know is he has a life and I better find one quick but it is hard after you haven't had one for so long. It is crazy. I'll find one and show him I'm not some clingy chick especially when I am not. It is just hard when you meet someone and enjoy spending time with them and they are into the same things you are into from 420 to tattoos and art. I think the reason it is so hard for me to get over this one because we really click. I've met or trying to meet my fair share of guys but none of them have clicked with me like this one. Ok enough about him. I believe I have blogged enough to get him out of my system. Besides he is out of town for "work" until Friday. I guess I don't believe or keep him at a distance because I just recently separated and this is too much too fast. Ok I'm getting a life and here quick quick, lol.
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